My feelings at d moment is so messed up. Ders alot to be think of. B it work issues.. My marriage issues.. My health.. Haiz. To think of it tomorrow is d dreadful day. Its a day surgery. So it shouldnt b a problm to anyone but the pain was told its gg to b immense. Hmm. Dreading coz impact it will make is bigger. I cant evn carry anytg more than 3kg. My hand movement will b restricted. I wonder if im able to swim anymore. Haiz. N i dont think i can b even stressed. Lupus will come back if im under pressure.. I noe d mistakes dat i haf at d moment is of my own wrongdoing. Evrytg will not happen if i dn reply back askin who he is.. On 28th feb 2012. If i ignore, all thos that has happen wont happen. Im guilty fr breaking a family apart. If watever i read frm his now defunct no more profile in fb is true.. Im too ashamed n guilty to c his wife n children.i shal have stopped wen its early. I realised that if situation is reversed n I found out my spouse is cheating its one hell of a blow fr me to accept d fact. All i can say is im terribly sorry.