It really dawned upon me half an hour ago when i read about SLE on the net... the SERIOUSNESS of SLE. A chronic illness which is LIFE THREATENING if your medications is not taken regularly and for you not to MAINTAIN A HEALTHY LIFESTYLE.
To think of it, it really scares me to even think of what's the outcome gonna be of my life if lets say my lupus flare up. It has never flare up since i was diagnosed in the year 2002. The doctor has once told me that if a flare up does occurs, it'll be much more worse than the first encounter...
with it...
It really opened up my eyes when i read all those lupus websites. I have not done my part to know well enough what is lupus exactly until today.
All this while, I've been taking my illness lightly as it is. Not following the DOs & DONTs.
All this while, My family have been so worried about my well-being, doing their best to accomodate my illness since im extraordinary from the rest. It made me realised that I've not been treating them well and it makes me sick to recall of the bickerings that I had with them. goodness me, how could i ever become so mean???
To mummy, abah, kak ra, abg aril n adik arul, trust me dis one last tym when I say I am n I WILL take GOOD CARE of my condition. Ive been so dependent on them. What if my parents grow old one day?? What if my siblings started to have their own families?? How am i going to cope with all this??
I need to be independent frm now on...
"ya allah, give me the strength and courage to overcome any obstacles that is thrown upon me.."
