in search of a part tym job as im running out of cash.. i need a job asap.. ne job wil do..
n i jus don like being at home.. i jus feel as if im caged n locked inside dis house.. for all those who noes me i nvr lah keluar slalu n its like d oni time dats i wana go out e2pun kena grill by my parents like as if im gg to do sumthing so so stupid.. i learnt my mistake alrdy.. i noe okies.. jus becoz of one bad guy one rotten guy who i regret bringing hm to meet my familie.. now u of all my parents don trust me nemore.. say dat i dono how to pilih d right guy n dat all guys out der are buayas... isnt dat jus so pisssing me off??? sumtyms i jus feel life is so unfair... d oni tym dat i go out e2pun lau nk kkluar im being asked qn upon qn n curfew upon curfew.. like 9 plus i need to be home.... den how cum d rest of d gals can jus go home late?? its not as if like i don have ne principles in myself.. its like haizz i jus so hate my life right now.. i just want them to believe me dat ive changed alrdy...
having dates... isit wrg to go on dates?? of coz i do noe d dos n donts being on a date. a normal date... i mean isnt gg on dates is to determine on wether we actaully have d chemistry gg on so dat who noes it might develop into a real r'ship???
having to have a conversation wif dat potential dat possibly cld b ur "MR Right" on d phone at night pun i cant even do dat?? i mean my sleep time is even controlled by my parents... wats dat?? arrgh im jus feeling so so stressed up at hm.... if dis way of method gg to happen in a long period of tym i think i will go crazy.. serius i mean it.. den how m i ever gg to be in a serius r'ship wif a guy whoever he is if dis is how my life...
i cant talk late at night..or talk till wee morning hrs.. (isnt dat wat couples do during deir courtship days???)
i think il be a spinster my whole life if dis carry on...
i cant even go out after magrib.. even if i go out its like daytym balik waktu mlm n e2pun limit by 9 plus... lambat ajer kena lecture n accused yg bukan bukan.. n everytym need proof/evidence dat im gg out wif gals instead of guys...im jus so d fucking stressed up wif my family.. dey r gd in a way... but dey dont seem to understand d situation dat im in.. i need to go out.. i don like to stay at hm all day.. it makes me wana rebel more.. its like dey dont trust me at all.. n i hate dat...
n i don have ne room to call my own at my home..
tk cukup bilik kat uma.. n im jus so d iri hati dat all my frens haf deir own room.
all i ask is jus not to sleep inisde my parents room nemore.. cant believe dat me n my adik laki tercampak kat my parents rm. my bro n his fren in dis rm. my sis n her fren in dis rm..
utamakan kawan gitu eh instead of blood..
i just cant believe dat my sis doesnt wana share d room wif me... y cant dey understand dat if im gona stay longer in d rm wif my parents im gg bonkers... so wat u r supose to haf dis butch girl r'ship gg on.. i respect ur way of life but as a sister do understand my plight.. i jus wana sleep in your room(which used to be mine n my adik) coz oni den will i feel a kind of relief dat im not under d scrutiny of my parents supervision 24hrs.. is dat hard to understand?? ur reasone being u wana privacy wif d gal.. wtf kan... susah sgt ker nk understand...
i jus hate it.. den i told my mom about me wanting to sllp in my sis room.. den dier ckp aper salah nyer tido wif her n dad and adik in d master bedroom.. i haf my own katil tingkat wat.. but still dont u guys get it?? i dont care about my adik coz he stil in sec. sch.. but me.. im turning 20 soon.. n im still sleeping wif my parents... i dont haf d privacy.. wen my parents slp i oso need to slp.. wats dat.. merepek kan.... im not a child nemore...
den dis funny incident my mom says tunggu sampai da jumper d ONE den kawin den i can slp in my own room. what logic is dat??? its so unbelievable to be like dgr mcm gitu nye rreason..
arrghhhh..
oh and again if im stil 25 n nt having a bf yet n m werking alrdy, i still need to slp wif my parents????
help me ya allah, give me d strength to overcum this hurdle of my life..
