.:all about u,us::.

to all d ladies, i apologize again n again for not mitin up on all the gatherings dat u gals organised.. been preety much bz or d shift.. welll ive tried request for 9 and 10 sept to be my off day.. so hope on either one of that days i get to mit at least one of u gals... been dat long... but dat doesnt meant i hav forggoten u alll or not readin each n every 1 of ur entries..

life per norm except dat lately ive been in this squabbles wif my sis n mommy..
myb im jus feeling so so d extra tired wif d wee morning shift.. 445 seh cab kat carpark tunggu everyday for d last 4 days.. haizz...


anyway yesterday went out wif sayang..went to tampiness mall.. been ages since im there..
byk da berubah seh..
\gtg\ catch u all later...

i miss everyone

really been a while yah...

here i am back..=)
ma life is stil much d same. ive not been attending for d mitups organised by my frens.. my schedule is so tight.. i need to make tym for my baby.. yup finall he got d job at siaec. alhamdulillah..
so now im given for d mth of september to pick a date that i wana request for off.. so neone of u frens who have planned out any september outings do tell me in advance yah..*muacks*

now im werkg full tym back at chomel but now m relocated at terminal 1.. but again dis is jus fulltym@ temporary.. muahhaha..

at home family is doing fine great except mami n abah health condition on d caution side.. likeable to have high blood pressure.. dats wat their medical chckup says... pray that my parents have everlasting good health.. i cant imagine hows life without them.. they are the one who stand by me all this 20 yrs... may Allah protect them frm any evil eyes that is cast upon them. Amin..

my sayang,azahari..
time passes by so fast without us realising its alrdy 9 mths..
all i can say is that you have been a wonderful guy to me all this while..
u shower me love that i never tot i could get frm someone named GUY.
you make my life complete. thanks for being there when i need you the most...
my ever darkest secret that we shared... u being so understanding with my babyish demands, accepting my sickness n d condition of my physical scars on my entire body n much much more...

u make me wannna feel like settling down soon n have ur babies... *wink2*

hope our plans to get married will be a reality .. insya-allah... i love you with all my heart...

hi u all..
remember me still my dearies???? at last i have the time off to update u all on wats happening...
currently d mia frm me is because i ve just started work at chomel.. past week has been at ck tangs.. tomoro il be relocated to changi aiport terminal 2.. chomel boutique..
i dono wether i can tahan d long standing hours.. killing my feet actuali.. two of my toes sampai skrg masih sebah sebah seh... but dis job is just temporary.. canot tahan must wear makeup tebal tebal lak tu... n for ur info ive just made a police report.. my money was stolen frm my purse at my chomel counter.. i suspect it could be one of d chomel staff coz oni we have d access to that drawer.. total i lost 157... betul nyer sue seh.. baru keja da hilang barang... feel mcm tknk kejer ajer kat chomel lag.. coz like fucked up seh drg... dnt u agree dat i should report to d polis??? not even one wantto own up seh dats y i resort to mk a police report... haizz... try to to c wether i can tahan at aiport.. new place.. just dat its 4 shift... cross my fingers il last...

i wish to get a better job like sumof my dearies.. i miss u all seh.. lin,ikin,sal,liza,ema,sri,aisah and zaidah... i miss u all... hmm my off day tk menentu seh....dats y i so much hope to get a 5days job... i love u gals...

im so happy dat ive just graduated at last after 4 long yrs... memories there i wil always treasure be it gd n bad.. coz sumhow it has teaches me to be independent n not dpend on otehers so much.. cant wait for d grad ceremony... together wif sal n ikin.. yeah.... at least ada member jugak.. 8 june it wil be.. da register ke lum korang???? hehehhe.. hope to c u der...

my love life update...
im still with him.. d desaru guy..
many plans ahead but i dont wana mengaharap so much frm him...
i jus hope my family will accept him..
i pray dat he will get a stable job soon so we both can concentrate in getting towards our goal.
hope he get d job at SIAEC.. oni den can i bring him home to my parents...

exams are over.. happy? hmm i wish i could have study more... sum of d questions i tak tau sey... all i want is to pass n grad sey... pls do mk my dreams cum tru yeah... insya-allah... pressure finally over.

now whats left is to pray for gd outcome n get a job ASAP. anyone ne lobangs on which place wana ppl??? now i need a job.. depending on whatever d outcome of d results gonna be.. realli in need of money.. to pay my bills.. reachin d 200 mark. wahlao eh... stress is on money now...

frens.. my gfs... i miss u all.. lin,sal,ema,ikin,liza,sri,zaida and aisah... biler nk outing lagi?? will kol u all reg ema's b'day... anyway cant wait to hangout wif d gals... n i cant wait either to hangout wif dila,syikin,yaya& d pussycats babes.. ;) ahkz...

for u ppl out der who noes me its confirmed im moving to yishun. by late april il be moving.. =) siaper nk tolong angkat barang sila telepon yer.. ;) hehehe..

Walking the Line

speaking of friendship.

i always put a line about being too close to them..
ive been hurt before.
dejavu is so not wat im looking forward to..
i know what it felt to be ostracized by ppl..

somthing to ponder abt...

how does one values a frenship??
y is there prejudice within a a group to dat someone whoever she/he may be??
isit dat easy for someone to discard a fren easily??

right here- Staind

I know I've been mistaken
But just give me a break and see the changes that I've made
I've got some imperfections
But how can you collect them all and throw them in my face

But you always find a way to keep me right here waiting
You always find the words to say to keep me right here waiting
And if you chose to walk away I'd still be right here waiting
Searching for the things to say to keep you right here waiting

I hope you're not intending
To be so condescending it's as much as i can take
and you're so independent
you just refuse to bend so I keep bending till I break

lover d lyrics....

huny im back....

been a wile since i update...

air yg dicincang no matter wat takkan putus.. dats wat siblings r for ryt.. tapi indah khabar dari rupa.. kenapa?? we r living under d same roof but it seems we r like strangers. N i hate dat feeling..

BUT i think all dos act put up by u reallyy arrgghh.. makes me think ur stil immature.. nvm.. if dis is what u want be it then.. i tried but u dont at all..

Had a talk wif dis two guy frens of mine ystday.. about r'ship issues. Both hv recently broken up. frm our conversation, they r into sec. sch gals wich i tot was way out of line for them. had a so called debate. they left me speechless in d end.. reason given by them yg buat me HOT was they are fresh compared to gals who go for older guys n not of their respective ages. to them they say gals dat go for older guys hav been screwed up alrdy so dats y d gals preferred old guys... WTF kann....
stereotype abis dis two mat kentals.. no wonder kena dumped by the Xs.. u r d guys who will corrupt d innocent sch girls mind.. u noe dat u arse..

having a r'ship has its ups n downs,for sum who cant handle the pressure ends in breakups..
dono wer im heading mine to.. towards destruction?? or eternal bliss??
seems like ours is stagnant or is he jus damn bz wif his werk.. i miss him.. does he?? i love him... does he?? i miss hearing his voice?? does he miss mine?? they say if u haf doubts,its a sign that theres gona be trouble ahead or shal i put it like dis, bubbye forever to us..?? have i fallen for him??
i guess im gg 2take a day as it is n see where it gona lead u & me...
i shall cut dwn on my sms to u 4 now..

my 2006

2006 here i cum..

cant wait to be 21. 21= freedom?? ehhehe.. well i have to wait in october for dat to be real.

im glad 2005 is over.
in retrospect, 2005 seems to be more of a downer...
i have many downs rather den ups.
shal not describe bout it tho.

m so so much looking forward to this 2006 =)

with 2006 i hope i wil try my very best to steer away frm dat grave mistake that i have made in 2005.

with 2006 i want to tone my tummy n my thighs. i want to aim for pacs n a slimmer bottom. yeah!! i do not wana haf that extra buldgin wen i wear my shirts n jeans.

with 2006 i want to finally hold dat diploma cert in my hand. all i have to do is persevere n do all my assignments n cum to sch n not misses ne lessons on purpose..

with 2006 i hope i can have a greater bond wif my family and frens. i admit i have not been doing my part lately. to my elder bro shahril, im sori for my joke went too far on d last day of 2005. n i tot u r game for dat type of stuff. jus don take dat joke as an excuse to replicate dat someone's action. mummy is happy n relieved now. don ever make her worried again like before.

with 2006 i hope i can express myself openly to the people around me. to them i love each n everyone of u. i realised life is too short. i don wana miss out on every happy or sad moments i had wif them. to arwah mak ngah, you wil always be in my prayers. i will persevere to d very end n not let anyone control my thoughts n my actions.